I had the best intentions to set out on a an hour and a half trip down to southern Arizona to watch the sunset as we were driving and to see my friends band play. We have a diabetic cat so we have to give him insulin twice a day so that was already planned for and we would have plenty of time to make it to the show. I could tell my emotions were starting to creep in. I wanted to go, I truly did as I miss my friends in the band a lot, I haven’t seen my them in over a year and three years had gone by before that but I also felt like I didn’t want to go. I thought of the drive, where the bathroom stops would be, the feeling of wanting to be spontaneous and surprise the band, the thoughts of what could we have for dinner, could I change my injection of my weekly medication to Sunday and still function at work on Monday. I felt tired too even though I only went grocery shopping and did one load of laundry. The time was ticking away and I was getting hungry but didn’t know what I wanted – well I did – I wanted nachos but didn’t want to go out or make them. I wanted peanut butter cookies too. My boyfriend offered to take me to dinner instead of us going to see my friends or to make nachos here at home, he found a quick peanut butter cookie recipe as well. But really nothing was making me feel any better and I just wanted to cry. The sudden emotions, mood changes and fatigue are truly the most annoying thing to me. We didn’t end up going anywhere, we watched some shows, I didn’t get my nachos but I can say the care my boyfriend put in to try and make me happy with the delicious cookies did make me feel a little better. I had to sleep off some of the emotions but still do feel bad I didn’t make it to see my friends. Still working on changing my mindset daily but I know that I have to take each day as they come and try my best to enjoy the times I do make it to other events.
Also we made homemade nachos for lunch on Sunday and they were delicious! 🤤