The What ifโ€™s..

In life these days, the what if’s have been weighing on my mind and heart a lot lately…

What if I was still married to the man I was madly in love with 10 years ago?

What if we thought we made it and ended up resentful towards each other in a toxic marriage with children?

What if we would actually did make it through our huge dip in the road of our marriage?

Would we have been happy?

Would even I have a child or two?

What if I never moved to one of the hottest cities that had dreadfully long summers?

Would I have found out I have an auto-immune disease that is made more noticeable sometimes by heat?

Would I have met my friends now that are more like family?

Would my friendship back home flourished if I was closer to them all?

What if I never get married again?

What if it’s too late for me to have children?

Would I be who I am today?

What if, what if, what if..

I don’t know how life would of played out for my ex-husband and I at all. I don’t know if we could even have children together since we did try for awhile with no success. I don’t know who I’d be, I fear I’d be a sad, depressed wife with children trying to make my life work.

I’m not sure why I’m reviewing the old times and the what if’s of my life from the past and present.. Maybe I’m just wondering because a big birthday milestone is approaching or it’s time to let it go and just be at peace where my life has landed me.

What if all I have been through has shown me, I’m a woman who can handle her own issues that arise, I’m strong, stubborn even at times, determined to live the life I have made for myself and enjoy the love that I have in my life that has never been something I have ever experienced.

This man I love today is my rock, keeps me grounded, the one who came along at the right time in life who is caring, kind, sweet, takes care of me when I’m sick, funny and most of all the most loving man I have ever met.

So what if all you’ve been worried about all of this time is for nothing? All that you feared or are fearing is bringing you to your best life?! Go ahead re-evaluate your life to to see how far you’ve come and if you are living your life to your fullest. But don’t you dare live in the what if’s that could of been or may have happen. Love your life and live it to your best abilities.

Transformation And GratiTuesday

It’s the last day of the month and a Tuesday.. What better day to share a transformation and my gratitude for the changes that have been happening over the last 3-5 years, maybe longer subconsciously.

My first few months in Arizona.. hello chipmunk cheeks..

Lunch date with some friends

In March 2015, I decided the time was now to change..

I chose BeachBody 21 Day Fix for the portion control containers, 30 minute workouts, Shakeology benefits and the mindset to set a new habit takes 21 days.

One month after starting BeachBody 21 Day Fix on our Hawaii vacation.

Round 2 or maybe even Round 3 Of 21 Day Fix.

I was inconsistent with workouts but kept going with trying to better myself with other BeachBody programs, eating clean and then 80 Day Obsession came along. 6 days a week with 35-60 minutes Workouts, Timed-nutrition, self-care tips to help you not only look your best, but also feel your best physically and mentally! Iโ€™m in!!

The start of BeachBody 80 Day Obsession. Day 1!

End of Phase 1 – BeachBody – 80 Day Obsession.

End of Phase 2 – BeachBody – 80 Day Obsession.

End of Phase 3 – BeachBody – 80 Day Obsession.

Here, I was so happy and still crying because I stuck to the program and finished strong!

Hi baby abs!!!

I started it all over again in June.

I haven’t been as consistent with the workouts but my nutrition has been better than itโ€™s been in years!

Results from 3/5/2015 – 6/4/2018.

I’ve not only lost weight, inches but have changed my entire mindset to food, workouts and self-care. Thank you body, mind, spirit, santa, the universe and of course sweet Autumn Calabrese for helping me live my best life!

Confession time… I ate sourdough bread again and I liked it!

Sourdough bread has always been my favorite type of bread. Especially when it’s toasted, covered in butter and some Brie cheeses.. ๐Ÿคค

The problem is Lovey and I have been gluten-free for over four years. Sourdough has wheat in it to make this delicious bread. ๐Ÿ˜ญ

I recently found an article about how sourdough bread is less of a problem for people that have gluten sensitivities.. ๐Ÿค”

The article is titled “How Sourdough Bread Is Helping People Eat Gluten Again”.

Shut.The.Front.Door!!

https://m.huffpost.com/us/entry/us_5b213232e4b0adfb82702959

Uhm hello carb loving fat kid jumping for joy in my head.

We searched Whole Foods for fresh baked that had sourdough starter in the ingredients as all commercial breads made in the store did not. We feared if it wasn’t made with the sourdough starter we’d have some tummy problems.

I’m happy to report we ate the whole loaf, mind you not all at once but over the week, and we had no issues.

This will not be an everyday occurrence but we will buy it again and be happy campers eating real bread!! We may even venture out to make our own one day!

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Real Talk

I have a confession and it’s not a huge O.M.G. Secret or revelation….

I’m a human who can eat healthy, look healthy, workout 6 days a week for three straight months but still fall off the “wagon”. ๐Ÿคญ

Yes, I AM healthy and do workout to maintain my health but there are days that I just want something more than veggies and beans and rice and more veggies.

I’m not saying to eat the whole selection in the pastry section of your local bakery. It’s called balance and being mindful of your food choices. It’s also means that’s yes you can eat yummy treats and still be healthy!

This weekend, yes I said weekend, was one that the sweet tooth sugary lover was in need of some yummy treats.

Oh my goodness of cinnamon rolls with homemade cream cheese frosting. ๐Ÿคค

Yes, they are gluten-free and egg free.. they were also soooo delicious!

Up next Carob cupcakes.

We added peanut butter to the homemade cream cheese frosting and ta-da you have what to me tastes like a chocolate peanut butter cupcakes!

And now back to your regular schedule of veggies and beans and rice and more veggies. ๐ŸŒฑ ๐Ÿ’–

Letting it go..

We all have a hard time with letting things go that we have no control over from time to time. Yesterday afternoon something happened that irked me even into the night. I woke up thinking I could of said this or that. I was talked down to over the phone while trying to explain a process that I’ve known for over 6 years. I was also told I wasn’t articulating what was needed even though I explained what this person needed to do three different ways. I was then laughed at and told “no I’m telling you what you need to do. I don’t need to do anything.” I was so upset I just said “I’ll handle internally!” and hung up on this person. I told my boss very loudly “that guy was such a dickhead!” For one, I rarely cuss at work and usually keep my cool but this was a rare moment that I could not.

My face on the phone and the look on my entire team on the floor when I exploded..

Definition of Articulate:

My expressive language after the call was very clearly understood.. ๐Ÿคญ

I’m a Capricorn, have trouble letting things go and stubborn in my ways. I’ve decided today I can’t fix it and maybe we just were not understanding each other due different verbiage used.. I’m trying to let it go and will await the Team handling this escalation to provide their feedback.

Hereโ€™s to changing my mindset and to a lovely long weekend!! ๐Ÿ’–

Feeling in a funk

Its been a day for sure but really has it been so tough? No, I just feel it has been. I can’t explain or understand why but the feeling is meh. I woke up refreshed, enjoyed my morning routine of breakfast and coffee with lovey. ๐Ÿ๐Ÿ‡๐Ÿ“๐Ÿ’โ˜•๏ธ

I went off to work in my car that’s paid for and was on time to boot!

The day is more than half over and I get to workout with one of my favorite “virtual” trainers, Autumn Calabrese, tonight. ๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿป๐Ÿ‹๐Ÿปโ€โ™€๏ธ๐Ÿคธ๐Ÿปโ€โ™€๏ธ

So to turn the day around, I took a deep breath and searched for positive/inspirational sayings..

Here’s to a better afternoon and evening!! ๐Ÿฆ‹๐Ÿ’–โœจ๐Ÿ”ฎ

Loving my breakfast Obsession

Have you ever run out of something that you truly love to eat/drink and turn into a stalker following the shipment details everyday until it arrives? No? oh okay welll I did this past week. I love my smoothies for breakfast and was missing my Shakeology to add in the morning.

I tried to substitute a vegan vanilla protein but I could tell the difference. Shakeology is not only is good for you with all of its superfoods but it tastes like vanilla cake deliciousness..

It’s been apart of my transformation over the last 3 years of learning what helps my body and does not in terms of living my best life. It’s not a protein shake or a meal replacement either. If added to smoothies or just an apple, a bit of peanut butter with some ice, it is the most delicious way to get all my vitamins, superfoods and minerals.

If your interested in learning more about how to get in your daily dose of yummy nutrition that tastes like a treat and maybe getting your body to move.. Head over to visit my website: https://mysite.coach.teambeachbody.com/?coachId=1639789&locale=en_US

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