The What if’s..

In life these days, the what if’s have been weighing on my mind and heart a lot lately…

What if I was still married to the man I was madly in love with 10 years ago?

What if we thought we made it and ended up resentful towards each other in a toxic marriage with children?

What if we would actually did make it through our huge dip in the road of our marriage?

Would we have been happy?

Would even I have a child or two?

What if I never moved to one of the hottest cities that had dreadfully long summers?

Would I have found out I have an auto-immune disease that is made more noticeable sometimes by heat?

Would I have met my friends now that are more like family?

Would my friendship back home flourished if I was closer to them all?

What if I never get married again?

What if it’s too late for me to have children?

Would I be who I am today?

What if, what if, what if..

I don’t know how life would of played out for my ex-husband and I at all. I don’t know if we could even have children together since we did try for awhile with no success. I don’t know who I’d be, I fear I’d be a sad, depressed wife with children trying to make my life work.

I’m not sure why I’m reviewing the old times and the what if’s of my life from the past and present.. Maybe I’m just wondering because a big birthday milestone is approaching or it’s time to let it go and just be at peace where my life has landed me.

What if all I have been through has shown me, I’m a woman who can handle her own issues that arise, I’m strong, stubborn even at times, determined to live the life I have made for myself and enjoy the love that I have in my life that has never been something I have ever experienced.

This man I love today is my rock, keeps me grounded, the one who came along at the right time in life who is caring, kind, sweet, takes care of me when I’m sick, funny and most of all the most loving man I have ever met.

So what if all you’ve been worried about all of this time is for nothing? All that you feared or are fearing is bringing you to your best life?! Go ahead re-evaluate your life to to see how far you’ve come and if you are living your life to your fullest. But don’t you dare live in the what if’s that could of been or may have happen. Love your life and live it to your best abilities.

Real Talk

I have a confession and it’s not a huge O.M.G. Secret or revelation….

I’m a human who can eat healthy, look healthy, workout 6 days a week for three straight months but still fall off the “wagon”. 🤭

Yes, I AM healthy and do workout to maintain my health but there are days that I just want something more than veggies and beans and rice and more veggies.

I’m not saying to eat the whole selection in the pastry section of your local bakery. It’s called balance and being mindful of your food choices. It’s also means that’s yes you can eat yummy treats and still be healthy!

This weekend, yes I said weekend, was one that the sweet tooth sugary lover was in need of some yummy treats.

Oh my goodness of cinnamon rolls with homemade cream cheese frosting. 🤤

Yes, they are gluten-free and egg free.. they were also soooo delicious!

Up next Carob cupcakes.

We added peanut butter to the homemade cream cheese frosting and ta-da you have what to me tastes like a chocolate peanut butter cupcakes!

And now back to your regular schedule of veggies and beans and rice and more veggies. 🌱 💖

The Healthy Journey Is on!

If you asked me if I ate healthy, I would say of course but as I evaluated my food I was eating I knew I could do better.

My love and I started eating Gluten Free in February 2014 due to feeling blah after eating food with wheat in it. 🌾 He has a wheat sensitivity, my mom has celiacs and I was breaking out on my arms with a rash. We went cold turkey. Man, do I miss a good toasted flour tortilla with Ooey Gooey cheese in it though!

In March 2015, I started the program BeachBody, 21 Day Fix to keep me in check with portion control and working out. I continued to eat sensible but slacked off in the workouts after a little while. I did find new workouts on BeachBody on Demand and again got into a rhythm.

Sometime in 2017, I started removing foods that made me feel icky or gave me headaches. Red meat, eggs, mushrooms, and tomatoes (I do eat on occasion but the acid in them is bad). So there went my most favorite breakfast, chorizo and eggs and of course spinach and mushroom omelettes.. 🙁

In the Summer of 2017, BeachBody announced a new program was coming 80 Day Obsession! So we eat a balanced diet that is portion controlled on a timed nutrition plan and workout for 80 days, we didn’t count Sundays. Those were self-care day, massages, foam roll, stretch, epsom salt baths. I began with a the sneak peak of A Little Obsessed before Thanksgiving 2017.

January 15, 2018, I began the full program of 80 Day Obsession, it was a Monday holiday for me so perfect day to start. We had taken measurements, photos and meal prepped the day before so I was all set for success!

Phase 1 ended, February 11, 2018.

Phase 2 ended, March 11, 2018.

Phase 3 is over and we are in what they’ve named as Peak Week which will complete the full program. Such a happy sad moment. 🙂🙁

I have felt great, eat the correct food on time and workout each day, minus one day in Chicago when I happened to do over 20,000 steps and was exhausted from travel that day. And come on deep dish stuffed pizza was a must!

My next journey will be an allergy test and 80 Day Obsession results.