August – the month of many ups and downs..

The month of August.. How I love but dislike you as well.

Thankfully most of these events did not happen in the same year.

I was married this month to a man who I thought was the love of my life, my entire world, my soulmate. These times were happier for sure. It’s a day I’ll remember as some of these precious souls that attended have moved on and I’ll cherish having them with us that day. ๐Ÿ‘ฐ๐Ÿป๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿคต๐Ÿป

I had an interview for a job that I wasn’t sure I was going to get because I don’t interview well and am so quiet until you’ve gotten to know me but did get it! 10 years later and I’m still with the same company and have learned and continue to learn so much. ๐Ÿ˜

Fast forward a few years; I found out my then husband was using drugs as I stumbled upon his “stash” in the garage. He had been lying or better said was hiding from me for 18 months of our marriage about this. I didn’t know what to think what else was he hiding? Could I trust him again? Did I even know what I wanted in life anymore? ๐Ÿ˜”๐Ÿ’”

Although some symptoms started in May of 2011 – dropping things, tingling in my legs that moved up my body into my hands, stumbling and tripping on flat surface while walking to name a few. After blood tests, several doctors visits and an hour and half laying completely still to have an MRI completed – the official diagnosis of my autoimmune disease was confirmed. At the time I had no idea how my life was going to change. I still stumble, lose my balance, have brain fog, the tingling in my legs and feet at times is still there. I’m learning from it daily and will continue to live my best life. ๐Ÿงก

My sweet daddy had a heart issue scare. I live in another state that is a 6-7 hours drive from my parents. I left as soon as I could and don’t know how but made it to them at the hospital within 4 1/2 hours. This scare immediately led to a quick fix and a major surgery scheduled. ๐Ÿ’” The week was a blur, I still remember the look on my daddy’s face though. This big strong man lying in a hospital bed with balloon pumps keeping his sweet loving heart beating. He was scared but was showered with so much love that he knew he’d be okay. He had a 4 vessel bypass and Mitral valve annuloplasty – repair to the heart valve, I am so thankfully I had my Momma and sister sitting by my side that week. He just had his 5 year checkup and all is well!! ๐ŸŽ‰โค๏ธ

Every year I try to look forward to the happy moments of the month, several birthdays for friends and family, the relief and grief of knowing what my body was/ is going though and to celebrate my Papi having a successful surgery. Changing my mindset and letting hurtful things of the past has been my goal this year. ๐Ÿ’–

The What ifโ€™s..

In life these days, the what if’s have been weighing on my mind and heart a lot lately…

What if I was still married to the man I was madly in love with 10 years ago?

What if we thought we made it and ended up resentful towards each other in a toxic marriage with children?

What if we would actually did make it through our huge dip in the road of our marriage?

Would we have been happy?

Would even I have a child or two?

What if I never moved to one of the hottest cities that had dreadfully long summers?

Would I have found out I have an auto-immune disease that is made more noticeable sometimes by heat?

Would I have met my friends now that are more like family?

Would my friendship back home flourished if I was closer to them all?

What if I never get married again?

What if it’s too late for me to have children?

Would I be who I am today?

What if, what if, what if..

I don’t know how life would of played out for my ex-husband and I at all. I don’t know if we could even have children together since we did try for awhile with no success. I don’t know who I’d be, I fear I’d be a sad, depressed wife with children trying to make my life work.

I’m not sure why I’m reviewing the old times and the what if’s of my life from the past and present.. Maybe I’m just wondering because a big birthday milestone is approaching or it’s time to let it go and just be at peace where my life has landed me.

What if all I have been through has shown me, I’m a woman who can handle her own issues that arise, I’m strong, stubborn even at times, determined to live the life I have made for myself and enjoy the love that I have in my life that has never been something I have ever experienced.

This man I love today is my rock, keeps me grounded, the one who came along at the right time in life who is caring, kind, sweet, takes care of me when I’m sick, funny and most of all the most loving man I have ever met.

So what if all you’ve been worried about all of this time is for nothing? All that you feared or are fearing is bringing you to your best life?! Go ahead re-evaluate your life to to see how far you’ve come and if you are living your life to your fullest. But don’t you dare live in the what if’s that could of been or may have happen. Love your life and live it to your best abilities.

Transformation And GratiTuesday

It’s the last day of the month and a Tuesday.. What better day to share a transformation and my gratitude for the changes that have been happening over the last 3-5 years, maybe longer subconsciously.

My first few months in Arizona.. hello chipmunk cheeks..

Lunch date with some friends

In March 2015, I decided the time was now to change..

I chose BeachBody 21 Day Fix for the portion control containers, 30 minute workouts, Shakeology benefits and the mindset to set a new habit takes 21 days.

One month after starting BeachBody 21 Day Fix on our Hawaii vacation.

Round 2 or maybe even Round 3 Of 21 Day Fix.

I was inconsistent with workouts but kept going with trying to better myself with other BeachBody programs, eating clean and then 80 Day Obsession came along. 6 days a week with 35-60 minutes Workouts, Timed-nutrition, self-care tips to help you not only look your best, but also feel your best physically and mentally! Iโ€™m in!!

The start of BeachBody 80 Day Obsession. Day 1!

End of Phase 1 – BeachBody – 80 Day Obsession.

End of Phase 2 – BeachBody – 80 Day Obsession.

End of Phase 3 – BeachBody – 80 Day Obsession.

Here, I was so happy and still crying because I stuck to the program and finished strong!

Hi baby abs!!!

I started it all over again in June.

I haven’t been as consistent with the workouts but my nutrition has been better than itโ€™s been in years!

Results from 3/5/2015 – 6/4/2018.

I’ve not only lost weight, inches but have changed my entire mindset to food, workouts and self-care. Thank you body, mind, spirit, santa, the universe and of course sweet Autumn Calabrese for helping me live my best life!

Feeling in a funk

Its been a day for sure but really has it been so tough? No, I just feel it has been. I can’t explain or understand why but the feeling is meh. I woke up refreshed, enjoyed my morning routine of breakfast and coffee with lovey. ๐Ÿ๐Ÿ‡๐Ÿ“๐Ÿ’โ˜•๏ธ

I went off to work in my car that’s paid for and was on time to boot!

The day is more than half over and I get to workout with one of my favorite “virtual” trainers, Autumn Calabrese, tonight. ๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿป๐Ÿ‹๐Ÿปโ€โ™€๏ธ๐Ÿคธ๐Ÿปโ€โ™€๏ธ

So to turn the day around, I took a deep breath and searched for positive/inspirational sayings..

Here’s to a better afternoon and evening!! ๐Ÿฆ‹๐Ÿ’–โœจ๐Ÿ”ฎ

Loving my breakfast Obsession

Have you ever run out of something that you truly love to eat/drink and turn into a stalker following the shipment details everyday until it arrives? No? oh okay welll I did this past week. I love my smoothies for breakfast and was missing my Shakeology to add in the morning.

I tried to substitute a vegan vanilla protein but I could tell the difference. Shakeology is not only is good for you with all of its superfoods but it tastes like vanilla cake deliciousness..

It’s been apart of my transformation over the last 3 years of learning what helps my body and does not in terms of living my best life. It’s not a protein shake or a meal replacement either. If added to smoothies or just an apple, a bit of peanut butter with some ice, it is the most delicious way to get all my vitamins, superfoods and minerals.

If your interested in learning more about how to get in your daily dose of yummy nutrition that tastes like a treat and maybe getting your body to move.. Head over to visit my website: https://mysite.coach.teambeachbody.com/?coachId=1639789&locale=en_US

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The Healthy Journey Is on!

If you asked me if I ate healthy, I would say of course but as I evaluated my food I was eating I knew I could do better.

My love and I started eating Gluten Free in February 2014 due to feeling blah after eating food with wheat in it. ๐ŸŒพ He has a wheat sensitivity, my mom has celiacs and I was breaking out on my arms with a rash. We went cold turkey. Man, do I miss a good toasted flour tortilla with Ooey Gooey cheese in it though!

In March 2015, I started the program BeachBody, 21 Day Fix to keep me in check with portion control and working out. I continued to eat sensible but slacked off in the workouts after a little while. I did find new workouts on BeachBody on Demand and again got into a rhythm.

Sometime in 2017, I started removing foods that made me feel icky or gave me headaches. Red meat, eggs, mushrooms, and tomatoes (I do eat on occasion but the acid in them is bad). So there went my most favorite breakfast, chorizo and eggs and of course spinach and mushroom omelettes.. ๐Ÿ™

In the Summer of 2017, BeachBody announced a new program was coming 80 Day Obsession! So we eat a balanced diet that is portion controlled on a timed nutrition plan and workout for 80 days, we didn’t count Sundays. Those were self-care day, massages, foam roll, stretch, epsom salt baths. I began with a the sneak peak of A Little Obsessed before Thanksgiving 2017.

January 15, 2018, I began the full program of 80 Day Obsession, it was a Monday holiday for me so perfect day to start. We had taken measurements, photos and meal prepped the day before so I was all set for success!

Phase 1 ended, February 11, 2018.

Phase 2 ended, March 11, 2018.

Phase 3 is over and we are in what they’ve named as Peak Week which will complete the full program. Such a happy sad moment. ๐Ÿ™‚๐Ÿ™

I have felt great, eat the correct food on time and workout each day, minus one day in Chicago when I happened to do over 20,000 steps and was exhausted from travel that day. And come on deep dish stuffed pizza was a must!

My next journey will be an allergy test and 80 Day Obsession results.